I want to be a better theologian.
Big word, right?
the study of God.
The best theologians you'll meet are the ones who make a habit of putting down their pencils and books often just to behold with the eyes of their heart the wonder that is God. They take off their glasses, unroll their sleeves, lean back in their chairs and gaze at God unblinkingly because they know that they are completely welcome in His house. They respond audaciously to the invitation to "Be still and know that I am God." Any "theologian" that forfeits the riches of experiencing God's presence is kidding himself... teasing himself... I mean, is he really a theologian at all?
Gazing upon the glory of God, resting in His presence, encountering His goodness and His furious love... THAT is the big WHY in "Why did Jesus save me from Hell?" "Why did Jesus set me free from sin?" "Why did Jesus give me His Holy Spirit?" and "Why did Jesus promise me eternal life?" God Himself in His fulness is the reward of the Gospel - And He is ours!
So what if we redefined the word "Theology"?
And you'll have to excuse me since I know it's bold... uncouth even.
What if "Theology" were defined as:
The daily experience of the fullness of the Gospel, namely through intimate relationship with God Himself.
Theologians wouldn't just know a lot about God... they would just know Him. Theologians' books would sound less like historical commentaries and more like autobiographies. They would be able to say from the pulpit and their prayer closet "I was there when they crucified Him."
Maybe I've made a false dichotomy...
Were any man a Child of God he too would be a theologian.
A child captivated by their Father.
Yes. I want to be a better Theologian.
I want to wake up hungry for His presence.
I want to go to bed satisfied with more of the same.
I was there when they crucified Him.
I was there when He rose again.